limelight7000

I always feel sad.
Painting helps only a little.
Pretending I don't exist and living in other worlds and realities helps more.
It also helps a little if I write it down like this.

I hope you have a good year!

I'm still thinking about what to do for it. I don't know if I will do anything, but thanks for looking anyway.

(Update) I made this to celebrate! A remake of my favorite!
 

It's hard to get my feelings out. I don't talk to people in real life. I will try to explain how I feel and rationalize it here.

I didn't vote for Trump and was surprised but in reality I've should have seen it coming. It is false to assume that other people think like you and have the same values and problems as you. The fact that some people could think that racism, sexism and xenophobia is a minor deal breaker is odd to me. I couldn't imagined voting for him. Their are a lot of reasons he could have won. Fear and anxiety most certainly played a part. I don't like Melania Trump. I think she is a trophy wife. A terrible example to women and girls and it demeans the office of the first lady.

The Democrats rigging their own election against Bernie Sanders. I hated that too. I wanted to vote Bernie Sanders. Hillary was a crook. Even thought I voted for her. I don't know how much the E-mail scandal harmed her but probably not enough to make her lose, I think. I think she pulled to hard on "He's a bigot so vote for me". I don't think people voted for you on the fact you're seen as the lesser of two evils. I feel another thing that contributed to it was the fact people can't use debates and prefer to shout until they get what they want. The Anti-Trump riots exemplify this.

The media lied, saying Trump was losing, when in fact he was winning. I hate that. The media constantly focused on his (many) failures but he is an entrepreneur and his business was and is successful. They lie all the time thought. The hatred towards white people on Twitter is appalling. Complete misappropriation. It would be better served trying to figure out how to accept this problem and move on.

I do worry about our image and our role in the world, especially our superpower statues. I feel we are losing it to Russia and China. I feel we have been on a decline since the Iraq War. Bush ruined it and Obama could not repair it. I hate the fact he wants to pull out of NATO, NAFTA and other ties we have to our allies and to make them pay for it is dumb. The border wall is unaffordable and Mexico is not paying for it no matter how much we try. I doubt he will inter Muslims in camps like the Japanese in World War II. I hope that most of Donald Trumps planned action fade out.

He played the game of politics well though. It's been two weeks now and It's hard to believe that he will become the president. I don't think I will ever trust him or get behind him like I did Obama. He has made a couple of terrible choices for his cabinet. I wished he'd chosen a more bi-partisan cabinet to help heal the divide. He says that we need to stick together but has not made a move to prove that.

This probably look just look like jumbled gobbled gook. I just wanted to right what is on my mind as to better understand my feeling. I can't rationalizes it of the top of my head.

Thanks for reading anyway.